Tuesday, October 19, 2010

"I'm scared."

Of course you're scared. There's no way I can understand the sheer terror and panic you feel unless my physical body has been assaulted and mistreated, many times in a life-threatening attack. You know a depth of fear that most people will never experience. And you've also heard - just because you've been raped once, doesn't mean you'll never be raped again. It's not like getting the chicken pox one time and then forever being immune to the disease.

But some of you are doing crazy things that aren't going to keep you from getting raped again. Cutting up your body is not going to make you safer. Stomping around and beating up one person a day won't stop someone from raping you. Cussing out every person who's of the same sex or ethnic group as your attacker won't help. Locking yourself inside your house all the time won't keep a criminal from breaking in. Refusing to wear the same color you were wearing at the time of the assault won't make a bit of difference.

You're not THINKING. You've got to stop reacting and start thinking. What exactly will make you safer? How can this horrifying experience make you a smarter person? What are actions you can take that will actually HELP? If your home is the source of the abuse, maybe you need to contact some authorities. Maybe you've thought about that and already ruled it out. Maybe you need to think in a different direction - about a different authority figure. If you were attacked in a public place, a self-defense course could be a positive, helpful step to take. Or research carrying pepper spray with you - or even wasp spray (I've heard it works better than pepper spray.) If someone broke in your home, find out ways to make your doors and windows more secure. Figure out ways not to end up walking alone. Always have a buddy. If you were "date raped", listen to the advice - never set your drink down and walk away from it - never leave a party alone with someone you just met - only "group date".

If you're abused by someone you trusted, learn about manipulation. Figure out how that person "got to you" and "sucked you in" and learn about how you can keep yourself from being tricked again. You can become stronger than you were before. Don't stop living your life. Don't start doing destructive things. Just become as smart as you possibly can.

And don't make people your enemies who aren't really your enemies. There ARE a few "demons" in your world - but most people are not "demons". Most people are helpful, even though they may not help just the way you want them to help. Of course you're scared - but some of you are scared of way too many people, and you're scared of the wrong people. Keep THINKING - who was the REAL "monster" in my situation? It probably wasn't the police officer or hospital examiners - even though they may not have handled your matter very well. They still HELPED you, even if they didn't do a top-notch job of it.

Remember the devil, your number one enemy? Fear is the weapon he's using to beat you down. "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." (II Timothy 1:7) Turn from the fear and walk in the power of positive changes and helpful knowledge and smarter habits.