You've gone to counselor after counselor. Some of them may have told you they were raped themselves. But they still don't understand YOUR situation - 'cause, maybe your rape got you pregnant & their rape didn't. Or, maybe it was your own father & it was just their first date with a guy they'd just met. Or, maybe YOUR rape happened at church - by the priest or music director. Or, maybe you're a guy. Or, maybe your family won't believe you. SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR SITUATION WILL MAKE IT COMPLETELY UNIQUE TO YOU.
But, remember this - every other rape victim feels the same way. Take comfort in the fact that there's a multitude of other hurt people out there that feel exactly the same way you do - that noone does or ever will understand.
So you know what that means? YOU have to be your own best friend. YOU have to figure out what makes you work & what shuts you down (and I promise you the "answer" is not drugs or alcohol or any other self-destructive behavior.) Set positive goals for yourself - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. Do one thing today, no matter how small, to reach your goals. Set relationship goals - with your parents, your brothers & sisters, your friends, your boyfriends or girlfriends. Move forward somehow today. Be kind to yourself. Don't help your attacker sabotage your future. Think about what wise advice you'd give to someone else & give it to yourself. Then follow it.
Then someday you'll wake up & know - noone else HAD to understand you anyway. You were smart enough to figure out what you needed to make it. You were your own best friend.
And Jesus is on your side. He loves you. And, believe it or not, He DOES understand you. Jesus was abused. Jesus was even murdered - the ultimate in violent torture & mistreatment & abuse:
"He (Jesus) is despised & rejected of men; a man of sorrows & acquainted with grief....." (Isaiah 53:3)
"Then did they spit in His (Jesus's) face, & buffeted Him; & others smote Him with the palms of their hands..." (Matthew 26:67)
Find a way to take your pain to the Person who has hurt as deeply as you have.
