Will you ever be like everybody else again? Will you ever stop hurting - in your entire lifetime? You're STILL not sleeping, and you have headaches all the time because of that. Every day your stomach stays in knots. Isn't there any way you could fall asleep and wake up with everything o.k. again? You look around and all you see just looks gray - and it's very hard to take a deep breath 'cause there's this heavy cloud bearing down on you. You feel nothing - just the numbness of mechanically and BARELY meeting the requirements your world demands.
I wish I could take this away from you. You've got to figure out what will keep you "in the game." You've got to learn ways that are within your power - and that are SMART - to give yourself a break and show love to yourself. Can you take a bubble bath - or a long, hot shower?
How about a jog around the block? Or curl up with some hot cocoa and a suspenseful murder
mystery. Call a friend to go see a movie.
Learn to recognize signs of tension in your body - jaw clenched, teeth gritted together, shoulders hunched up, neck painful and tight, stomach knotted up, fists clenched, breath shallow and fast. Force yourself to take slow, deep breaths. Roll your head around so your neck loosens up. Stretch as tall as you can to the ceiling. Massage your jaw. Tighten then relax your hands.
Do something to distract yourself from the sadness - learn to play a musical instrument. Write a book. Run for political office and make victims' rights your pet issue.
What makes you smile? Do it.
God is loving you through this - even if you see no evidence of it yet.
"For I AM PERSUADED, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth," (nor rape) "nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39) Memorize these verses!
And don't wear your problems as a badge, using them for an excuse. Remember this - problems are made to be SOLVED, not ignored but not bowed down to and worshipped either. Get up and take some type of action to solve your problems instead of just sitting around endlessly talking about them.
You WILL make it through!
